My mother is depressed, and has been for the past couple of days. I can tell by her lack of energy to cook dinner when I get home from work. Also she frets constantly about all the 'projects' she is facing and can't seem to get done. Which is kind of hard to listen to as she is retired and usually sitting in front of the tv when I get home.
However she is 84 years old and the primary caregiver for my dad who is 85 and has Parkinson's disease. Her life has been turned upside down over the past few years and now all she sees as her life is watching over my father.
Dad loves mom dearly, but they have 61 years of habits and built-in responses to each in their daily dance.
But she is lost I think and needs some kind of focus to give her life meaning. Maybe that is why she needs to be 'busy' and occupied with worrying about stuff.
I love them both and am very glad I'm here, don't get me wrong. But sometimes it is so hard to see my father fumble when trying to button his sweater, or take three tries to push himself out of the chair.
This aging business can really suck I think.
More tomorrow.
1 comment:
I'm passing by to say hello. I can relate to being a caregiver for aging parents. I took care of my grandmother, and parents. My mother passed away in March. Even though it was difficult to take care of her, she was very deppressed about not being independent, I do not regret one second of it. We got to know each other better than never before. I miss her with all my heart. Wish you and your family many blessings in the hew year.
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